It's sleeting outside. Not quite rain, not quite snow.
I'm cold but I don't want to turn up the heaters. I'll just through another blanket on the bed.
I can't sleep.
I'm feeling really empty right now.
I want to blame it on Jon for being away but I know it's not because of him.
Two and a half already. It's only been two and a half?
It feels like a lifetime ago.
I don't feel like it's okay for me to talk about him as much as I used to so I keep it in.
But, I still miss my sweet Pearce, my angle baby, my Stone of Joy.
I should be sleeping.
It's just too cold.
Oh sweet friend, how I wish I were there to sit with you in your apartment, drink hot yummy somethings, and cry and miss him together. Don't stop talking about him. You are NOT supposed to. He is yours and ours and not ever forgotten or passed by or moved past. He is a crowning jewel in the eyes if the King, and dearly dearly missed and loved. Cry for him sweet mama as you are meant to. It is healthy and good. I love you dearly. -Renee
ReplyDeleteLove you. I think about him too - talk as much as you need to. <3
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