Friday, April 30, 2010

Such a lucky girl!!

Well, it's official.

I have the best friends in the world.
I already knew this but once again it was smacked in my face today.

My girlfriend from work - who I call twin because we have the exact same birthday - happens to be one of the best dressed girls at the office, and buys all of her clothes at thrift stores ta'boot. Well she knows that I hate to shop, and when I say hate I mean HATE. Anyway, she saw me today with my big belly stuffed into another non-maternity top, that's right I'm 10 weeks along and have a big belly, and she said "That's it Charmian I'm going to go shopping for you this weekend"

Man, I am one lucky girl with some amazing friends!!!

Guys if you're out there and your reading this know that I love you, and appreciate you more than you will ever know.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

9 weeks

Well I know no one is reading this yet because frankly I haven't told anyone yet. But I want to share my thoughts and feelings with the abyss because frankly I can't - no, I don't want to hold them in any longer.


This may seem like the best news in the world but for me it comes with a bit of apprehension.

Pearce - my son, my angel baby, my stone of joy - came and left this earth WAY to quickly. He was diagnosed with Anencephaly, a neural tube defect(NTD) that effects the brain and cranium. When I was this far along with him all I knew was that everything was perfect. The doctors were amazed at how early we were able to see the heartbeat and how strong and steady it was. Because of some other complications I was able to get a lot of ultrasounds and I was able to see my little one take shape and turn from a little flicker to my son.

When I was about 14 weeks pregnant I had a routine check up with some blood work up. Jon and I left for a week long trip to Germany and while we were gone the results from the test came back - we had a 1 in 10 chance of having a child with a NTD. When we made it back to the states my doctor called me to explain the test results and said "it's probably nothing, if anything your baby has spina bifida and will just need a few stitches at birth and will be fine, if it was anything serious we would have seen it already"...

Little did I know that the next few days would change my life completely, make me question and contemplate things that I've never even thought of before.

That was then - and that is why I'm scared now.

I'm sure you want to know the rest of the story and God knows I want to tell it, and I want everyone to hear it but I can't right now because I'm worried for my little one who has a strong and steady heartbeat and that's making me so queezy I can hardly stand it.

If there is someone out there in the abyss that comes accross this post please say a little prayer for me...and Jon...and Pearce...and our new little one.

Thank you!

Monday, April 19, 2010

Just a Hum Drum Day

Well, today's just one of those days. I'm feeling really yucky and nothing at work seems to be going right - at all. Everything keeps breaking and it seems like I'm the only one who can fix it - UUUGGGHHH!!

On another much happier note my plan is to get up some posts soon with pictures from our previous trips so I can refer back when telling funny stories or referring to our family/friends. But let's be honest I just love talking about our trips so any excuse is good enough for me.

We had an awesome weekend - busy but still laid back. I was able to rub a baby bump, see my Marrieds, and visit half of the Reederman's.

Well that's all for now!!

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Welcome to our Journey

If you've spent any time with us you know that Jon and I live big - we succeed big and we fail big - we tend to dance to the beat of our own drum and we try to find the joy that comes with the uncertainty that life brings. What you will see and read about on this blog are what Jon and I have a passion for.

Our Girls - Four Legged and Furry/"Our Bitches" jce
The Great Outdoors
Low Impact Living

Jon and I have decided to start this blog as a way to share our journey with you. While our lives may not be particularly note worthy we do think they are interesting - well maybe I shouldn't go that far but we do think it's a bit humours. As we continue in this adventure we find that our loved ones are no longer down the street but around the world. We hope you enjoy this peek into our life.